I know God puts desires in our hearts for a reason. Our hearts are all full of desires. I pray that I will know the difference between desires that God puts in my heart and desires that the devil puts in my heart. And let me tell you it is a constant battle. I've lived my life out living by desires from both. This latest desire that God had put in my heart is a desire to share my journey to know, seek, learn, love, and live as Christ with others.
For a long time my journey with Christ was a christian checklist. Church on Sunday-check, church on Wednesday-check, pray before bedtime-check, read the bible on my own once in a while-check. I lived the life of a guilt ridden christian and I thought I'd never get enough boxes checked to be good enough or worthy enough of such love.
During revival in 2010 God rocked my view of what he wants from me. He wants a heart that desires to know him more. He wants me to cry out for more of him. He wants me come sit at His feet not because I feel like I have to but because I want to be there. He wants me to rely on Him moment by moment not just when I'm in distress or in need. He wants me to hunger and thirst for more of Him instead of more of the earthly stuff that the world sells. He wants my #1 priority in my life to be my relationship with Him. He stripped me clean of my checklist and showed me the difference between christian acting and truly wanting a relationship with God.
One of the fundamental scriptures that God showed me during that revival was Joshua 24:15. Many of you are familiar with the last part of this scripture, but it was the first part that rocked my world.
"But if serving the LORD seems undesirable to you, then choose for yourselves this day whom you will serve, whether the gods your forefathers served beyond the River, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land you are living. But as for me and my household, we will serve the LORD." Joshua 24:15 NIV
For so long serving the Lord seemed undesirable to me because I didn't see the fulfillment in it. I served him when I felt I had to and I served the world and the devil when I wanted to as well. There is no black and white with God. He wanted me to choose this day out of the desire of my heart who I was going to serve.
I've felt Him telling me to testify of the things He is revealing to me. This verse had been in my head Luke 19:40: "I tell you," he replied, "if they keep quiet, the stones will cry out." His love and his teaching are meant to be shared and if we don't share of His goodness the rocks will cry out.
I'm so glad you are joining me on this journey. I have so much more to learn and so many hurdles for God to guide me over. If no one reads this I know that that the Lord will still use His teaching to guide me day by day. If I have readers then I pray that somehow by God's infinite power, wisdom, and intervention you will choose to serve, long, hunger, and thirst for more of Him too.
